Have you ever....

.....had one of those weeks where on Tuesday you feel like it should be a friday already because of the amount of hours you've put in?

.....needed to just have a good cry and no tears will come?

.....been passed over for a promotion and have people who were junior to you now be at the same level as you?

.....thought you would not feel bad if you were not promoted but feel just really horrible when your name is not on the list?

.....wondered what it feels like to be the right level at the right age?

.....just wished you could sleep the whole weekend and knowing that it just will not be happening?

.....been so sleepy and yet been unable to sleep?

.....had to clear review notes which were beyond your control?

.....felt like you are just disappointing the people you work with?

.....wondered if maybe you're not cut-out for the job that you thought you'd do so well?

.....known you enjoy the work, but maybe you do not have the personality type to do the work?

It has been one of those weeks, maybe its exhaustion, maybe i'm just being a drama queen...but i sure hope the sun does come out tomorrow

What resonates with me

Wonderful, merciful Saviour
Precious Redeemer and Friend
Who would've thought that a Lamb could
Rescue the souls of men
Oh, You rescue the souls of men
Counselor, Comforter, Keeper
Spirit we long to embrace
You offer hope when our hearts have
Hopelessly lost our way
Oh, we've hopelessly lost the way

CHORUS
You are the One that we praise
You are the One we adore
You give the healing and grace
Our hearts always hunger for
Oh, our hearts always hunger for
Almighty, infinite Father
Faithfully loving Your own
Here in our weakness You find us
Falling before Your throne
Oh, we're falling before Your throne

By Selah

Thank God

For peace of mind

Goals for the week

I am going to copy this blog and see if by making small, easily achievable goals, whether i can achieve them. So here goes:

- Go to the gym for atleast an hour of exercise this week
- Read a full chapter in the bible
- Go atleast one full work day without checking yahoo or facebook (i hope i can do this one)

Easy enough you may be saying, but these are some of the things i find most difficult to do

The voice of the Lord?

Well 2009 and a new year is upon us once again (atleast for the new year). I hope it brings lots of good things only for me and my loved ones. I know it's been quite a while since I was on here but now i'm back, atleast for now anyway.

Of late i've been feeling like the Lord is talking me. I have this feeling like i'm being nudged towards something. A thing that i've been struggling with for quite a number of years now. I feel like He's telling me to trust Him. To just let go and to let Him step in and take control of my life and this situation in particular. I feel like He's calling me to have a personal relationship with Him, to not rely on my own strength but to put my trust in Him, to test Him and watch Him coming through for me in all areas of my life.

I have been asking God for awhile now to give me clarity or show me some signs concerning this situation. On various occassions now i've felt like i've gotten real signs including someone coming and actually telling me that the Lord is telling her to tell me to do that thing and to stop struggling. The thing is that i'm confused, i'm struggling to let go and surrender to the Lord, i know this is because i'm still relying on my own strength and not trusting in Him fully. I am also struggling with whether this trully is the Lord's voice/urging, but then again, why would any other thing putsh me towards the Lord.

I just wish i could see what life would be like with me totally trusting the Lord, like i could get some kind of peek into what He has in store for me. Like i could have some kind of guarantee about some things.

From my phone

Testing, testing 1 2 3

Now

So i'm now officially un-employed, atleast for the next short while, i pray.  I'm already at my wits end, i always want to have time off but never really know what to do with myself when i'm finally off...usually by day two i'm like ok...so what else can i do.  I don't even know what i'm going to do especially since i will have no internet access.  Actually i dont know when this will be restored because i have a feeling the next work issue laptop i get will not be able to access the internet, oh well, i guess we'll just have to wait and see.

 
 

Officially starting running again tomorrow.  Its been awhile since i last abandoned it.  But this time i'm going to stick with it, firstly because i'm putting on too much weight and in all the wrong places too and secondly because i've been threatened with grevious bodily harm is i abandon my running partner whom i've actually convinced to start running so that i can have company.  Because I think that was part of the problem last time, the fact that i used to get bored when running and also scared.  Our goal is to run this, and when we sucessfully run that, we shall buy ourselves some funky outfits