Thank God

For peace of mind

Goals for the week

I am going to copy this blog and see if by making small, easily achievable goals, whether i can achieve them. So here goes:

- Go to the gym for atleast an hour of exercise this week
- Read a full chapter in the bible
- Go atleast one full work day without checking yahoo or facebook (i hope i can do this one)

Easy enough you may be saying, but these are some of the things i find most difficult to do

The voice of the Lord?

Well 2009 and a new year is upon us once again (atleast for the new year). I hope it brings lots of good things only for me and my loved ones. I know it's been quite a while since I was on here but now i'm back, atleast for now anyway.

Of late i've been feeling like the Lord is talking me. I have this feeling like i'm being nudged towards something. A thing that i've been struggling with for quite a number of years now. I feel like He's telling me to trust Him. To just let go and to let Him step in and take control of my life and this situation in particular. I feel like He's calling me to have a personal relationship with Him, to not rely on my own strength but to put my trust in Him, to test Him and watch Him coming through for me in all areas of my life.

I have been asking God for awhile now to give me clarity or show me some signs concerning this situation. On various occassions now i've felt like i've gotten real signs including someone coming and actually telling me that the Lord is telling her to tell me to do that thing and to stop struggling. The thing is that i'm confused, i'm struggling to let go and surrender to the Lord, i know this is because i'm still relying on my own strength and not trusting in Him fully. I am also struggling with whether this trully is the Lord's voice/urging, but then again, why would any other thing putsh me towards the Lord.

I just wish i could see what life would be like with me totally trusting the Lord, like i could get some kind of peek into what He has in store for me. Like i could have some kind of guarantee about some things.

From my phone

Testing, testing 1 2 3

Now

So i'm now officially un-employed, atleast for the next short while, i pray.  I'm already at my wits end, i always want to have time off but never really know what to do with myself when i'm finally off...usually by day two i'm like ok...so what else can i do.  I don't even know what i'm going to do especially since i will have no internet access.  Actually i dont know when this will be restored because i have a feeling the next work issue laptop i get will not be able to access the internet, oh well, i guess we'll just have to wait and see.

 
 

Officially starting running again tomorrow.  Its been awhile since i last abandoned it.  But this time i'm going to stick with it, firstly because i'm putting on too much weight and in all the wrong places too and secondly because i've been threatened with grevious bodily harm is i abandon my running partner whom i've actually convinced to start running so that i can have company.  Because I think that was part of the problem last time, the fact that i used to get bored when running and also scared.  Our goal is to run this, and when we sucessfully run that, we shall buy ourselves some funky outfits

I thank God for...

...the fact that quitting my job actually went very well.

...my bosses who didn't ask where i was going and who were only to glad to give me the letter of release.

...the promotion i got even though i had to turn it down in the end.

...i know and believe that the application for my work permit will be quick and painless and will be granted.

...my operation that will also go well in His name.

Thinking

...it is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all....